Wednesday, March 8, 2006:
it just strikes me how sometimes you try to be a friend, something bad always happens to you. maybe its just me, and my actions and what i do that people dont like. maybe im not discerning enough. maybe things just happen because things do. i dunno.
its is getting to me again. i feel sad, yet glad. so many things have happened. relationships with parents, with friends. coming here to study, leaving home, choosing something else over jc life. and i do wish i were back home. home in my comfort zone. back in ac with everyone else, leading a perfectly normal jc life, with all the typical complaining, the day-to-day gossips, the lastest crush, the boring lectures, the strictest teachers, the cutest boy, the hippest class, who's cool and who's not. but yet, im still somewhat glad that im here. away from stressful jc, which claire claims to be awful. i dunno. i guess every situation has its good and bad side. its just the angle which you look at. jeannie said something today that was really important to me, she said that its better to look at the bright side rather than the bad cos there's just no point. thats true. i mean, i'm here. i ought to make the best out of this. i guess thats whats God's been trying to tell me this whole week. alot of things have happened this week. and its just making me realise that fretting and worrying isnt going to help anything. i should just put in my best and my hundred and one percent, and let God make the miracles.
im glad ive been able to talk to people from home recently.
to my parents - i know you two are reading this, thanks for listening to me, for encouraging me, even when im so temperamental and i lose my temper when ever i talk to you two, and thanks for everything, thanks for giving me verses, thanks for lending me an ear to my rubbish (although im pretty sure i made sense sometimes) and for being someone that i know i can cry to with out feeling embarrassed or awkward. although i still dont understand what the heck im doing here swamped with millions of things to do with you guys constantly nagging at me, i know that God is working in my life, and all these didnt happen by chance. thanks for strengthing that point. and i think its great that you guys always encourage me with verses.. i love you two.
to claire - hey, thanks for talking to me that night, thanks for cheering me up (although you didnt know you did, cos i didnt tell you i was sad, but you did! thanks heaps :D ) with all your nonsense, about the excruciating life of jc, and i'm thankful that i have you to talk nonsense and junk to. i really really miss you so so much, and when i get back, i've to tell you loads okay? we have to go out, and catch up loads! haha.
to kaye - hey! you know what, thanks for supporting me in prayer. remember the last time i called you? you prayed for me and for my life in school to be loads better, and your prayer worked! well, sorta. (: i still dont really like school. haha. but its better than before. its bearable. yepp. all the best in rj yeah? you've been a great part of my life, and i really really miss talking about stuff while walking home with you from btp. thats when we always have our serious talks about.. life? haha. yeah. its been really great.. i'll call you again soon.
to clem - haha. well. you can be my new phone buddy eh? haha. how long did we talk for? 3 hours? damn. haha. i dont even know what we were talking about, but it was great talking to you. (: and yepp. i know alot more things about you than i used to. haha. and thats cool!
to dean and james as well - you two can SHUT UP. otherwise the first thing i do when i get back is to whack you with the already very dented pink metal bottle. well. its been awesome knowing you three. and i cant wait to get back and hang with you 3 again. it would be really fun.. go to nydc at holland and have dinner again! and james you're not invited. hehheh. (: we can take lots more photos ay? gah. i just cant wait to get home. (:
to ken - ay. we only had that short phone convo before the phone got passed around. how were the three tests? cool? i hope you do well for chem and a math! theyre like the coolest subjects! and yeah. you have to do well. (: okayokay?
to prash - what on earth was up with the kkj (or whatever it was) thing? oii! sounds wrong. hehheh. i thought it was weilin. wahahha.
to sarah wong - aye. sorry, i didnt reply your sms! sorry sorry. but yeah! thanks for asking! im okay. got lots of things to tell you, i'll call you one day, i dont think its short enough to put over sms, so i didnt try to text you. yeah. loads of stuff. sigh.
to zong - oii. haha. alot of things make sense now. heehee. and i've told you this before. but anyways, thanks for always calling me on my mobile! haha. just wait till the phone bill comes out! yesyes. then you'll probably get the biggest scolding of your life. but dont worry! cos nothing is greater than talking to the goose right, mr duck? haha.
and last but not least, to
sarah mok - zhenzhen, thanks for being my prayer buddy and thanks for confiding in me with stuff and in the same way, thanks for listening to my problems and fears. thanks for always being so sensible and so encouraging. i hope i can be as much help to you as you are to me! i love you dear. you're such a great friend. (:
well. thats about it. and yeah. im pretty glad that we're all still keeping in touch with another. and its been a really awesome 5 weeks. and its all to God's glory that i've survived and got alot less homesick than the first week. so i'm sure he'll still be the one who will solve up the messes in my life. well. there's still another 6 weeks more. and i can cope! hopefully. haha. anyway. i should go. i'll blog again.
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a shout of praise.
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